My name is Gina Rush. I am an educated (Master’s Degree in Business Administration and Computer Resources and Information Science) working mom and a self-employed (Business Consultant) mom, which sums up to three full-time jobs – mother, employee, and boss. Additionally, I have been writing articles, stories, blogs, business documentation, and any other type of written material since I can remember, most often for work-related purposes and less frequently for self satisfaction. Many of my pieces have been opinionated, written exchanges regarding some controversial issue or deep entrenchment in a “mind dump” of internal thoughts to an electronic file kept locked away on my computer. Sometimes I have shared those ramblings, sometimes not.
From a young age, my grandfather always encouraged and urged me to take my writing to the greatest levels I could possibly achieve and often repeated that I had the makings of a great writer. As is typical of teenagers, I “knew better” and never did heed the advice of my elders; however, of late find myself with a burning desire to make a difference in this world through my writing and let that part of me take me down a much more fulfilling path in my life regardless of the topic about which I choose to write.
When I started this blog back in 2013/2014, the intent was to share my experiences and wealth of knowledge with the world, choosing not to focus on any one topic. I have, however, over the past eight years been married to a man who I felt with every fiber of my being to be my soulmate, my “forever”, only to discover he suffers from narcissistic personality disorder and my marriage has been a mirage, a scam, and my “soulmate” a non-existent figment of my imagination. The realization that I had been living a lie as only “one-half” of a committed marriage destroyed my world and left me “damaged” and shattered. I have only just begun the long road to recovery, fraught with dissociative disorder, panic/anxiety attacks, and a complete loss of self due to the daily reward and punishment cycle of a narcissistic abuser.
While this blog is primarily dedicated to me, it is also dedicated to all of the other victims who have unknowingly become victims of an individual with narcissistic disorder and must now try to find themselves again, travel the long path of healing, and pull themselves from the dark desperation of trauma bonding and abuse to once again live in the light. I will continue to share other life experiences that have molded me into a vessel of knowledge; however, my primary focus will be the journey I am traveling to rediscover the woman I was prior to the abuse and to redefine and heal the woman I have become at the hands of my abuser.
